Sunday, October 17, 2004

life isn't gd rite now. feeling dark, real dark. i see no lite at the end of this tunnel man. haha. life's boring rite now.

wen pple say, "u dun expect anything in return wen u do a favour." it's true man. nth ever comes back to me. wen i cheer pple up, nby does the same 4 me. wen i try to keep evry1 in all the activities, im always left out.

life's real screwed. esp my love life. if i ever had 1. evry ger i liked or feel in love wif is owas 1 sided. dey nv did return my feelings. until lately, i liked dis ger for dunno how long, bt i dunno wad she feels at all. im a lil confused right here. i guess it's another 1-sided ting agn.

den dere was "clem b". bt dere were misunderstandings. i guess i nv did click wif ya all. so i guess it's better for it to stay "clem" or was it always like dis? hmm, fill it in? the significance of "b" nv did matter.

evrywhere im left out. activities.. argh, dunno wad to say. the best word, "pangseh". dat's all i can say to describe it. life's getting real sick now. getting pangseh-ed is in my daily routine alr.

hmm, den for some "frens", i jus wanna say dis. i see no frenship or love in ya all, only fakeness. in ur hyprocrisy, i only can see ur end, misery. yea.

my ex-bball team, nx. expected me 2 be superman. i haf my limits. i cant atk for lyke all 4 quarters? i jus a man, not a superstar.

nby understands what i really feel now. i dunno wad im feeling. guess im numbed. been depressed 4 the 3/4 of the yr alr. haha. nby cared anyway. now's its all numb, n im feeling real dark. seems dat metal's my lifeline now. im feeling real dark.


in a nutshell

school life: screwed
church life: left out
love life: 1 - sided

life: cant wait to die.
the happiest day of my life is the day dat i die
(check out good charlotte - the day that i die)

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