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Friday, September 10, 2004

warning:explicit entry

summary: life sucks, it nv rawked. i always try 2 dere 4 my frens wen dey r screwed or haf prob wif gers. bt in the end, wen i get in fucking shit, dey jus laff away. haha fucking used 2 it man. im sick n tired of being dere wen nobody's ever dere 4 me. so far the only few who haf really nv turned their back on me was yong lian, marcus, jason, tiffany, vick.. haa.

feeling fucking aimless in church noways oso. dunno wad im dere 4. censored convos, aimless convos. i fuckin outta place in church at times. totally aimless. i mean its like trying 2 fuck in the dark n you can find ur hole. wadever. church politics? fucked up. "haha poser", "lousy band", "loser". i noe wad u all r sayin behind my back lar. i not fuckin dumb. i jus wanna stray away man.

dis hols was okay. nth much. sojourney was not dat interesting, nor was anaconda. the stay-overs were quite cool though. seen tru sum pple alr. nth much lor. my mums fuckin naggin 4 no apparent reason. n guess who i met jus now! christina (not church 1). ended up chattin 4 lyke an hour? haha she's still dat cheerful ger. haha. life in a nutshell sucks 4 me.

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